過去の感じが消えちゃった

So much time has passed since the last time I wrote a post in this blog.

I still remember the period I started sharing my Japanese learning journey here. At that time I was a high school student who decided to write a blog to write about my passion for Japanese and language learning.

However, a lot of things has changed since that time. Japanese learning still plays an important role in my life, but the vibes I used to feel in the past has disappeared. I feel that in the last year I started waling away from the innocence of youth and approaching adulthood. Living in a different city, starting university life and pursing an internship for the first time made me face reality realize that fulfilling a dream isn’t easy. Even though I have dreams, now I wonder if they will become true. I’m split into two halves. A part of me gives me the energy and motivation to go ahead and to work hard to get closer to my ambition, but then there is the other part makes me fear that my dreams are just illusions: sometimes, you sacrifice other things to reach a goal, but it may happen that the result of all the things you give up and of your efforts to reach your dream won’t be what you expected.

I just hope that the positive feeling will prevail and that I can go back to those feelings.

桃花笑春風

The other day I came across this Chinese poem:

去年今日此門中

人面桃花相映紅

人面不知何處去

桃花依舊笑春風

Its last verse made me think… The heart of the poem is that peach flowers keep blooming and releasing their scent every year in the same way, but while flowers don’t change, human being change. However, I like to think that it conceals the meaning that even if the flow of events makes people change, their heart doesn’t change, and they can go back to their former state of mind, feeling the same emotions and preserving what makes who they are…

過去を反省して将来を見据える

This week marked the end of the first semester (actually it officially finishes on 31 January, but as I don’t have more exams I consider it over lol)

These first months of university passed really fast. When I think about it, I can’t believe that so much time has passed since I moved to a new city and started this new journey. Now that I have time to reflect carefully on the past months, I consider them as a period of transition: I had to get used to different rhythms, different amounts of work, different daily schedules, different people, different places. At first I felt disoriented and scared, but eventually I started settling into this new life.

Also my Japanese learning journey has been influenced by these changes. Even though I can’t say that my Japanese hasn’t improved, I feel like I could have worked harder to enhance my proficiency, especially as for writing and speaking. I think that in these months the area I have made more progress is listening, which I basically practiced every day. But I regret the fact that I haven’t worked hard enough to improve my reading skills, thus these days that I haven’t nothing to do I’m planning to focus on reading. I especially want to read novels more often, considering the fact that so far I read less than a half of 花の鎖 D:

One of my aims for the next semester is to revitalise my Japanese blog. Yesterday I changed the theme and the title and deleted all the pasts articles. I’m not so unrealistic to say that I will update it weekly, but at least I’d like to write a new article once a month. Since I deleted the past articles, I have something to write in the first post, a 自己紹介 xD

New routine

Finally found time to write a new post! I can’t believe I haven’t updated the blog for so much time D:

I’m still really busy with my studies and it’s always difficult to find some free time, but I’m starting managing to “create” time to devote to Japanese learning. Basically I get up everyday earlier to spend some minutes learning some grammar points or some new words. Then during commute time I listen to Japanese podcasts (even though I usually hear less than 50% of them because of the uproar of the city -_-) and if I’m not too tired, I read Japanese news. Then, after dinner if I don’t have anything to study, I watch dramas. Now the fall season of dramas is starting, thus I’ll have some new dramas to watch ahah

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The last week I went to a Japanese restaurant with some course mates. I was so glad to eat sushi again after ages lol

The next week there will be the first exam, so I’m quite anxious xD But on the weekend I’ll come back to my hometown for two days, thus I’ll have the possibility to relax a little and to study all the stuff I’m neglecting these days to study for the exam ahah

Evening reading :)

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Spending the evening reading in Japanese (:

Japanese always make me feel better. Today I’m not at my best because I still  have to get used to the new environment I’m living in. To attend university I moved to a new city, which is far larger than my hometown, and these days I’m living alone in a new apartment, thus I have to cope with many things I used to take for granted (like cooking, washing dishes, etc). Moreover I feel quite lonely because I don’t know anybody here. Of course, I had a chat with my some of my course mates, but it was just something superficial :\

Anyway, I’m happy that Japanese always cheers me up. When I do something related to Japanese, I can retire to my own world and forget all the worries (:

Another inconvenience I’m dealing with these days is that I don’t have  wifi yet (now I’m writing using my phone connection), thus I can’t watch dramas 😱 ahah Fortunately I downloaded some podcasts before my departure, so I can practice listening, even though podcasts aren’t as enjoyable as dramas lol

A new journey

Tomorrow summer holidays end T_T

This year the end of summer holidays doesn’t mark the beginning of an other year of high school, but the start of a new journey, since I’ll start university. Actually university lessons start on Tuesday, but tomorrow I’ll move to the city where I’ll attend university, so I consider it as the beginning of the new adventure.

To be honest, I’m not sure of my feelings related to this change in my life. On the one hand, I’ve been looking forward it because I’m going to study something I’m really interested in since I was at my first year of high school and because I like the city I’m moving to (even though it’s completely different from my hometown), but on the other hand I’m also anxious since I fear of not being smart enough for university. I just hope that my concerns won’t result to be true (>_<) ただの杞憂だと願う

I’m not sure about this, but hopefully I will have more time to devote to Japanese learning than during high school. Maybe, I won’t have enough time to watch as many dramas as now because the apartment isn’t really big and I have to share it with my brother, thus I can’t watch dramas whenever I please xD

Then, after university starts, I’d like to keep exercising. Basically, the last month I’ve resumed to practice swimming and I’d like to keep going to the swimming pool even though I move from my hometown because I realize that physical activity is good for my health lol

これからも頑張っていきたいです!

Plan to keep in touch with Japanese during exams

I know, in the previous post I said that after the end of school lessons I would have more time to devote to Japanese learning, but I’ve noticed that the things I have to revise for the final exames are more than I had expected, so my prevision was completely wrong T_T In particular I realized that in the programme I have to study for the exams there is a topic of biochemistry I haven’t studied yet D:

As in this month I won’t have more free time than in the previous month I’ve made a plan to keep myself in touch with Japanese despite the loads of subjects I have to revise:

  • try to practise listening skills watching dramas ot listening to podcasts every evening
  • revise the grammar points and words I’ve already learnt
  • try to read news articles without writing down unknown words in order to exercise reading skills
  • if there is some spare time between some revision sections, try to learn some new grammar points
  • remember that I don’t have to worry about not spenting enough time learning Japanese since there will be almost two months of holidays between the end of the exams and the beginning of university, so there will be a lot of free time to devote to Japanese ^ ^